And so that's kinda where I'm at, man
You know, my relationships have gotten better these days
I'm so close to my brother these days like, it's, uh
You know, it's wild
You know, and I've met like, couple of the greatest people I've ever met Like, through AA
You know, I've learnt unconditional love and things like that, not things that I'm able to practice yet but at least, for the first time in my life I'm aware of some of these things
And more will be revealed, man, that's what they say in that program more will be revealed
You know, and you can develop a relationship with a higher power or you can do what you want
They got coffee, they got shitty cookies
It's a fucking trap house but where people get together to share good time, real time
You know, I'm so excited, man
I get to go home I got five nieces and nephews today that love me
You know and even if they don't I get to watch, like, my siblings be parents, you know I get to watch my siblings love their children
In a way that we never got to experience and I'm awake for that
And, uh
You know, my relationships have gotten better these days
I'm so close to my brother these days like, it's, uh
You know, it's wild
You know, and I've met like, couple of the greatest people I've ever met Like, through AA
You know, I've learnt unconditional love and things like that, not things that I'm able to practice yet but at least, for the first time in my life I'm aware of some of these things
And more will be revealed, man, that's what they say in that program more will be revealed
You know, and you can develop a relationship with a higher power or you can do what you want
They got coffee, they got shitty cookies
It's a fucking trap house but where people get together to share good time, real time
You know, I'm so excited, man
I get to go home I got five nieces and nephews today that love me
You know and even if they don't I get to watch, like, my siblings be parents, you know I get to watch my siblings love their children
In a way that we never got to experience and I'm awake for that
And, uh
And, man, it has been a journey
The drugs and alcohol have been whatever
Uh, I don't know if I'll always be sober I have no idea
But the thing that keeps me involved is
I get to learn so much about myself about loving others about acceptance
It's introduced me to other issues that I have that
You know, maybe drugs and alcohol aren't even my issue
It's just introduced me into a world of, like, introspection
Like, for the first time, I can take a look at myself and I still Look, I got a ton of faults, I'm not
But I know that if I stay, like, on this path that things can get better I believe that 'cause there's proof for me
You know, my career has gotten better
You know, I've met people that have loved me
You know, I've been in and out or a relationship with somebody that loved me
For one of the first times in my life that I really felt that
Not that other people hadn't loved me in the past but this was the first time I could feel it
You know, and it's just because something had changed Inside of me, you know, where I didn't need to just have all the walls up or whatever to survive anymore, like
You know, I think my higher power wants to tell me, “Look, man, you're gonna be okay, you know, you can take a break”
You know
Anyway, you know, I don't know if I'll always be
A part of this program or not
But, you know
The drugs and alcohol have been whatever
Uh, I don't know if I'll always be sober I have no idea
But the thing that keeps me involved is
I get to learn so much about myself about loving others about acceptance
It's introduced me to other issues that I have that
You know, maybe drugs and alcohol aren't even my issue
It's just introduced me into a world of, like, introspection
Like, for the first time, I can take a look at myself and I still Look, I got a ton of faults, I'm not
But I know that if I stay, like, on this path that things can get better I believe that 'cause there's proof for me
You know, my career has gotten better
You know, I've met people that have loved me
You know, I've been in and out or a relationship with somebody that loved me
For one of the first times in my life that I really felt that
Not that other people hadn't loved me in the past but this was the first time I could feel it
You know, and it's just because something had changed Inside of me, you know, where I didn't need to just have all the walls up or whatever to survive anymore, like
You know, I think my higher power wants to tell me, “Look, man, you're gonna be okay, you know, you can take a break”
You know
Anyway, you know, I don't know if I'll always be
A part of this program or not
But, you know
This is the story that I tell
(This is the story that I tell)
This is the story that I tell
(This is the story that I tell)
And look, I wasn't a coke head, I have friends that are coke heads
I mean, my coke use was probably, it was over a couple years, maybe once every few months
Maybe three times a year, four times a year
But then there was a point over about three weeks or maybe six weeks, I don't know
Where it had escalated and it was just kind of like once a week
And then it was like two, three times a week, you know?
I mean I'm pissed, sometimes I'm like, fuck, I wish I never even got to smoke crack
You know, I don't want to be a crack head but fuck
You know, I'll take a hit or two, just to see, you know, what everybody's talking about
Down at the bus
Down at the Greyhound, you know?
But since then, you know, in this program I've learned like
[Chorus]
I don't feel alone as I used to
And I'm learning to have different feelings about myself
Different ways of thinking about myself
I don't feel as alone as I used to
(This is the story that I tell)
This is the story that I tell
(This is the story that I tell)
And look, I wasn't a coke head, I have friends that are coke heads
I mean, my coke use was probably, it was over a couple years, maybe once every few months
Maybe three times a year, four times a year
But then there was a point over about three weeks or maybe six weeks, I don't know
Where it had escalated and it was just kind of like once a week
And then it was like two, three times a week, you know?
I mean I'm pissed, sometimes I'm like, fuck, I wish I never even got to smoke crack
You know, I don't want to be a crack head but fuck
You know, I'll take a hit or two, just to see, you know, what everybody's talking about
Down at the bus
Down at the Greyhound, you know?
But since then, you know, in this program I've learned like
[Chorus]
I don't feel alone as I used to
And I'm learning to have different feelings about myself
Different ways of thinking about myself
I don't feel as alone as I used to